I'll try my best to make this not so nonsensically long and give you the basics with brevity. I'll be summarizing ALOT. In the beginning was an entity known as the Eternal Sovereign, a being whose mere existence creates. It created two beings known as the Honest and the Dishonest among the mortals. The Dishonest to scorn her father cursed all mortalkind with a darkness upon their soul, an intuitive ignorance, a subjugation of the mind to the body called the "thorn of dishonesty".
That's the foundation for the system. The idea is that all things have a soul or spark but mortals have an immortal spark. The idea is that a group of mages or "magic men" have found a way to restore the intuition of the immortal spark just above the hypodermis exists a physical manifestation of the immortal spark's energy called the "layer of light" by tattooing the light they can re-orient the spark and re-subjugate the body to the mind. Now by doing this the energy of the immortal spark seeps out and fills the scars upon the body causing them to glow.
The problem I'm having is logically and metaphysically how can this give an individual magical power. I want magic to be a choice and equal, no one is stronger or weaker but rather creativity is what gives an edge. Is this enough info or is the rest of the magic lore needed? Thank you for taking the time to read my nonsense and have a good day.
This part will be rather long.
There are fundamentally three parts to mortal beings: the immortal spark(self), The Mind(choice), and the body(desire). Originally while still in touch with the Sovereign and the Aeons they had a proper intuition that guided them in congruence with their nature but after the Dishonest's curse they became a walking metaphysical contradiction. That is to say, they were a painted canvas among the divines the Dishonest destroyed the artwork and the "magic men" have to very painfully re-paint the canvas.
This "unlocks" their magical potencies. They now have the power to manipulate other things' emanations(the energy within the spark) and to channel it using emotion or reason creates different effects. Such as using a fire emanation has the ability to create fire in a particular spot or to specialize it instead, using emotion can give a firecracker like concussive explosion or reason can be used to create a short range laser-like flame, shorter but far more dangerous.
While, channeling they store the foreign energy within their own emanation and the energy begins to convert their own immortal spark's emanation dramatically increasing it's power. This is called hardening. The harder the foreign energy gets the more damage to the body the release can do. If it ever reaches 100% hardness this creates a potency event using fire as an example this incinerates the individual and can destroy nearly forty thousand miles of land from the concomitant release.
My issue is I'm trying to create a system using Gnostic mysticism and Stoic philosophy that choice is your greatest power and self-discovery gives power, that is to say self-discovery equals suffering and I think that is a proper approach as all suffer. How can I properly express that in the system or should I start over?